See that Avatar girl over there? Ok yes, she's skinny. I am not. BUT even though she is a character, an animation (yes I'm fully aware that she is don't worry), and I do have all my marbles, my elevator does absolutely go to the tip top floor, she inspires me a little.
I'll never be that. That thin but I take pride in my appearance, I put makeup on when going out, when going to work, look modern and fresh hair and makeup, and am on the other side of a weight I haven't been in a long time. I could still go on the show "The Biggest Loser" and be considered as a contestant probably. Fully recognize I have ways to go but know that I am not perfect and because I am trying and see some results (again for the hundredth time in my life) it's rewarding. I saw someone yesterday who has lost weight fast, 20 plus pounds in 5-6 weeks. It really got me down. I was happy for her, told her she looked fantastic but left upset, stupid me, stupid woman crying in the car while driving. Nothing devastating but just hard to see someone do it with such ease when for me, it takes such dedication and so many times of wanting to eat perfectly but not doing so makes me take longer in the battle to lose it.
My Wheaties bowl is already full of milk (and Wheaties) so no crying in that bowl, and moving on, just saying, it's worth it and after the shed tears yesterday I was more resolved to be diligent so that I can acheive what is reasonable for me. I will never be 150 (and to some THAT is fat) and I truly am ok with that. So the pretty Avatar girl up there, she drives me since I've had her up. Twisted, silly, not realistic but hey whatever works; no?
I have a name for her. It's silly. Maybe I'll tell you later. ;)
signed-
Whatever Works.
You cook, you clean, you go to work, you nourish, you love, you scold, you are professional and yet you hang your hat on every dust particle in your home. You are a woman. Some women are Moms and some are not. You are still a woman. We are all made similarly. We are strong.
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