I have to work on being less so. Less of me. Less mean. Less direct. Think more of others and how they take what I say. Less me. I'm no good the way I am, or, less good.
How do you soften yourself? Is it possible? I have searched for this answer for a long time. I have long prayed about it. But as I've mentioned before, I think God's deal is not to just outright give you what you pray for. It's either going to happen or it's not, it's already plotted out. His way is to let you make your own way and sometimes the things you ask for are never aquired. A child that is sick and dying? A fervent constant prayer, a begging prayer, a bartering prayer, an on your knees begging to take the place of this child prayer, that doesn't work sometimes. I've seen it; been there, done that. Maybe that event changed my life and made me harder, made me want to be more in control and in charge. I'm still searching it all out. Your life makes you who you are. I know mine has. I am realizing it more and more. I will try to put it out there less. I will soften my hard edges and if I know what I want, I'll say it less. If I know what I think, I'll say it less. I'll probably write on here less too. I need to be less the way I am. -will work on it.
-j
You cook, you clean, you go to work, you nourish, you love, you scold, you are professional and yet you hang your hat on every dust particle in your home. You are a woman. Some women are Moms and some are not. You are still a woman. We are all made similarly. We are strong.
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