Someone just rip my heart out now. Holy Mac. I've been trying to get up the nerve to take the Littlest' pacy away for two solid weeks. Like I've been on the cutting edge of taking it away but just couldn't do it to him. Today before nap I almost just got up and cut the tip off. Again; couldn't do it. It's an internal battle. I see how it soothes him but then again, he naps at school without it so I know he can do it.
Tonight after bath, his Daddy said, "Ok Littlest, no more pacy right?" and I literally took the pacy went into the bathroom like a robot and cut the tip off. Never said a word to anyone, just did it fast so I wouldn't talk myself out of it. I went back into his room and showed my honey, and he about fell over. I gave it to the Littlest and he put it in his mouth and immediately spit it out like it was a disease. He said, "it's broken" with a very worried look on his face. I wasn't sure what his reaction would be but I didn't think it'd be that. He walked out of his room and said, "I take it to the oda (other) room" and we followed him over there as he set it on the ground. Hmm. Ok I thought, this is going to be easier than I thought. Ha! Think again.
Um try I've been trying to get him to sleep for the last hour. He's very worried about his pacy. I was rocking him trying to get him to fall asleep without it and he looked at me in the dark and said, "Pacy's broken, what happened?" He is VERY worried. I almost starting crying. You know what I told him? I told him "maybe it got broken at the State Fair" in a barely audible whisper he says, "yah" and looked away as he played with his lip. Oh boy.
What have I done? I can't find this pacy anywhere anymore. I am actually contemplating going out to find one right now. But he's particular, it can't just be any pacy. I've tried others when I was in a bind; he rejects them on sight. Must be HIS pacy. And now HIS pacy is "broken". He seems so sad. He NEVER stands up in his crib and cries out. He always goes right to sleep. With his pacy. Now?
I feel absolutely horrible but I know, at two years old, he SHOULD be done with his pacy. Tell me this is just going to be bad tonight and tomorrow night. Someone tell me this. Lie to me. Ok, don't lie to me. Just lie to me. ...big sigh...
Jenn
4 comments:
jenn..i felt the same way when we took the boys bibi's and they get over it. it took a couple of days and every once in awhile they talk about them. but i promise he will get over it! hugs to you! tracy
Good luck with that. I am not one for taking comfor objects away hence the boat I am in now but that's just me. We all grow up fast as it is, lets have comfort were we can. We all learn to cope just fine. But that's just me.
Yes well that's why I'm feeling the broken heart (and he probably is too) but I think he proved that he can sleep without it as a trend as he does so at school all the time and never asks for it. He really doesn't NEED it, he just wants it....probably same difference at this age. It's time. It will be hard, it is hard, I wonder if I was too rash but what's done is done. It's done.
Jenn
we did not take the boys until july of this year so they were almost 3 and if i would have had my way they would still have them now. but i know its better that they dont. you are ok! tracy
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