OK. I'm at Sams, I see cookies, I must have them. I get them. I feel guilty. I still get them. I come home. I eat ONE. Then one more and then I stop. I don't finish the second. GUILT.
I saw a grand recipe for a thing called Gooey Butter Cake. I print it. I copy it to my recipe book. I intend to make it.
I have been eating this Sara Lee cheesecake ice cream. I think it's Breyers. It is yumola. Hear me? YUMOLA.
WHAT is wrong with me? I am SO not a huge dessert fan. Yes, I'm plus size, yes I'm a 'plump' girl but dessert has never been the thing that has been my downfall. Never. NOW I'm craving it all. I literally have hours till Jacob is born and I keep walking past those damn cookies I bought from Sams. Just eying them.
Stress and worry and happiness and concern and excitement and just every word you can think of. Its all running through me now as I wash baby blankets and fold clothes and make sure my bag is packed and Jacob's bag is packed and Noah's bag is packed..... Ivan is sick. He didn't go to work today. He'll be fine for tomorrow. He'll be better. I know he will.
Things in our life are about to change in a wonderful wonderful way.....
signing off for now....wish us luck......lots of little butterfly wishes...
----Jenn
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