Some things you think you cannot take. Then the thing passes and you look around you and realize, amazingly, you took it. Still standing, you took it. I pray for patience and wisdom and seek it out. I seek it out because I know in my core that I truly didn't come pre packaged with it. The real me snaps easily. If it doesn't come out of my mouth, I'm probably thinking it in my brain. The real me when I'm alone and myself wants it all done now now now and quicker. Cannot stand marinating things that need to be done. Why are we waiting? Let's go. Let's move. Are we done yet?
This past year has to some degree been a test. A test of a marriage, a friendship, a relationship. Not REALLY a test, but challenging times. We have fared well. Better than well. I am proud of what I see that we are and because of this past year, I'm all in. I'm more than all in, you couldn't pull me out if you tried. Odd how certain things show you strength you never knew you had. Some folks are oblivious, and others are worried. I see all of that and am aware of it. I'm aware.
Death didn't knock us down and I guess not much else will either. We're strong and won't waiver for anything, for the kids, for ourselves, for this life. I get mad then I get over it and then I get on down the road and get to live this life-with my best friend. Lucky. Blessed. Amazing.
You cook, you clean, you go to work, you nourish, you love, you scold, you are professional and yet you hang your hat on every dust particle in your home. You are a woman. Some women are Moms and some are not. You are still a woman. We are all made similarly. We are strong.
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