Age

Now that my birthday has come and gone (safely) for the year, I can reflect a little. It's hard for me to wrap my mind around the fact that I'm 39 years old. I certainly don't feel that age but there it is, I'm 39.

When I look backwards and think of the path I've taken and the ups (lots of them) and downs (they were really down) overall the balance is healthy. I can say that and mean it. I sometimes have to remind myself that I "think" I'm wiser than other folks because not always (lots always) is that the case. I can say that and mean it.

I've learned that kindness goes very far and is quite impactful. Simple things more so than big things. It has to be the kindness where nothing is expected in return. I've learned to be myself first but when that isn't work, fall into the ranks and flex it out. I've learned to try to say how I feel but at the same time, quiet works wonders too. I've learned that love conquers all, and it really does. I'm not just a hopeless romantic, I really know that is true. This past year has been proof of that. More proof of that really. If you have love with someone, you can get through anything. I have learned that.

I want success in this year. I want it to be a true precursor and a small successful skip into year 40. Because this year and that year, well, they will be very telling. I do believe all that I've learned up until this point will bound forward with tons of energy and positivity. A lot of talk, I know and the proof is in the pudding. If you do more giving than you do getting and you live simple and without much 'material', it's very rewarding. I have come to learn this too. I'm thankful for this life we have built and the way we live it. Call me altruistic, call me a dreamer, but I have become pretty comfortable in this skin of mine. I'm liking it and it fits me pretty well.

-J