Your Perception IS Your Reality

It's funny. Not really Ha Ha funny, but you know, amusing in a suttle understated kind of way......how you have one perception of yourself and the reality is one entirely different thing? Ok. I THINK I like how I look. How far I've come, I have lost this slow weight, and sometimes I look in the mirror and actually am happy with what I see. Really? I wouldn't say I think I've no further to go.....I totally know I'm still overweight, see me down there, trying to do the splits? I'll get it one day....

Kidding, only kidding, this is not me up there but some days, I look in the mirror and I think that is me....yet other days I feel I look like a beautiful runway model (ok notsomuch but you know, better than the gal above doing the splits...) Now the tall thin chick above her? I can't get her picture down here quite right but you see her, up there, looking all you know, in a suit, all thin and what no? Kay. Yes, I'm being very sarcastic all the way around, but you get the idea.

Then you see yourself in a picture and the whole balloon gets deflated. I'll keep at it, I have to, I'm not going back that's for sure. I look in the mirror, I think I like how my body is changing but looking at it through the lens of another, phew. Depressing for a second. What's the lesson here? Don't go gettin' a big head? Right. Lots farther to go. Stay tuned. Maybe by summer or summers end, I'll do an update (good grief, maybe sooner..)

Ugh. But un ugh. :)

Jenn