Being a Mom

--Is a blessing
--Is non stop
--Is fun
--Is TIRING
--Is full of hope
--Is so gratifying on every level
--Is enough to drive you to drink
--Is enough to make you step in front of a 100 mph bus to save your child in a heartbeat
--Is the rise and fall of me
--Is the one thing and I mean the one thing that keeps me from choking every family member who lives in this house with all the laundry that's in the same said house
--Is the best. And I do mean that. But right now....I am just TIRED.

Maybe it's because I'm sick and still have to keep going, doing. But right now I.AM.JUST.SO.TIRED. And usually, if I'm feeling tired you aren't going to hear it from me. It just goes with the territory. Mom. Tired. One in the same. But lately, this whatever it is, sinus infection, in addition to attacking my voice and making me sound like an old person who's smoked for 75 years, is draining all of my energy.

Now let me go into the Oldest's room and purge all his old clothes. I got mad and threw them into one pile (from the closet where they were hidden away and 'somewhat' organized) in the middle of his room. I kid you not when I say the sum of that pile is taller than his bed. It's not as BIG as his bed but the pile I made is TALL. Now I'm looking at it like, "oh my. what to do now? why did I do that? seriously?" When all I want to do is take a nap and get better. Wah wah wah. I know. I know. Cry me a river.

-pishaw.
Jenn



-J