Baby Love

If you have a little one, you'll know what I mean. When you are rocking your baby to sleep, it's the most special time in the world. The bond you are forming is unbreakable. I cannot get enough of his baby smell, I swear it oozes from every one of his tiny pores. My friend Tammy and I have talked about this from time to time. What is that smell? Why do they have it and then outgrow it? Is there a study? I'm going to research it. It's absolutely heavenly and it makes you fall in love with your baby more all the time. I love how he just completely relaxes in my arms after a bottle, or the huge contented sigh he lets out, like all is right with the world..I will sit there and rock him far beyond what he needs. Sometimes I doze but not for long, there's much to do in this house, let me tell you. But I do let myself and we just sit in the glider chair quietly rocking back and forth. The door is always shut, and I know he knows when we go in there, it's his normal routine of quiet time, sleepy time. He has been saying "nigh nigh" for about 2-3 weeks now. He knows. I find it so comforting our routine. I hope he does to, I think he does. He still needs his two naps but I know within 2-3 months (or sooner) I will begin the transition of weaning him to one nap. Less time to bond and cuddle but what can you do, he's growing too fast.

I know I'm not the only one who cherishes these moments, all moms do. For me in my world it means a tad bit more; the time we have. If I could just squeeze him into a bottle and carry him with me everywhere I would and I wonder, is that a normal feeling? I do need and want 'me' time and I get it every now and then, but you know what I mean.

He has undoubtedly become the glue that has held us all together. I watch his older brother and I cannot imagine another child being so overprotective over another. I'm sure I was over my sisters but I don't remember it like I'm experiencing it now. The oldest is so in tune with when the littlest may get hurt, may fall, he projects it out depending on their activities and sometimes I must admit, he's far better at it than I. He gets upset with me and will say, "You weren't watching him!" and he's right. I give the baby some freedom and I have the house fairly well baby proofed so I know, he may fall, I'm turning my back for a moment or two, but he'll be ok. The oldest sees it as OMG he's going to GET HURT and panics. It's irritating but I love him for it. He's the perfect big brother for this little boy. God does things just right doesn't he?

I think so.

-J