Liberty

For someone or something that means so much to you it's hard to find the right words to say when that someone or something is gone, lost. I even feel that way after having lost a child. I know the loss can be many things, a pet, a friend, a father, an uncle, it doesn't matter, it doesn't have to be a child. I do get that. It's just hard for me to show it.

So to you, I am so sorry. One of your best friends is now far away yet so very close. No more hurt, just peace. Liberty.

I wish I could make it better but I know in my heart, no one can. Not one person. Go ahead and cry it out. Later after days and months, and many moons, you'll know it was just meant to be this way.

I think sometimes I am too matter of fact about death. Maybe I'm far too jagged after all that has happened. I try not to be. I really try. But I think I feel I know it all (when really I know I don't) and I think I have a right to this death and emotions thing (when really I know I don't) and so because I'm such a vocal and verbal person and have to try to make everything right and everyone know they are justified in how they feel (because I still feel lonely about it all to this day)-----------I just say it all out there. I just do. I'm sorry if I'm too much about it all. If I'm too forthright, to any of you really, I'm so sorry. I'm just me, trying to do better, be better, and help if I can--because you know, I really have been to hell and back. I really have. At least, know it is my intention to help; not hurt.

Hugs, many hugs.

Liberty.

Jenn