WW and David Copperfield

Sorry I have a lot on my mind so it's all going on one entry. If it seems jumbled; welcome to my world, so is my brain!

Last night I surprised my husband for his 40th birthday and took him to see David Copperfield here in our area. He was totally surprised all the way till we got to the parking garage, it was killing him. So fun. I had his clothes laid out, manipulated him coming home early (thanks to his supervisor at work ;) ;) and off we went. The show was great. I do think David Copperfield is a bit conceited but I guess he is famous and whatever to that. We both thouroughly enjoyed the show and after we went to a small very intimate Italian restaurant for dinner. Thanks to Grammy and Grandpa for watching the boys! I could tell he really was appreciative because he kept looking at me with these eyes and just squeezing my hand. It was very nice. Let's see, David Copperfield made a car appear out of nowhere on the stage, he made 13 randomly picked people who were brought to the stage, disappear and reappear in the top balcony in the way back, and lots of other neat stuff. Cool to see live and in person. He has quite the personality but also, his cockiness really shines through when he's interacting with the crowd and his helpers. Overall, great though.

SO. Weight Watchers. I have been doing well. I had one week where I gained and that thouroughly devastated me. Last week, I recovered nicely and lost a little more this week. This is tough! Can I tell you, I think I really do have an addiction to food. Some days, it is seeming more and more like second nature to eat well, be healthy in what I consume but other days, it KILLS me. I suppose it depends on the stress level. Hmmmm, I had to fire someone this week but it was something I'd been ready to do for a while, had to be the right time and get the right go ahead and it just so turns out, I was on that day so I got the extreme pleasure. I know that sounds sick and twisted, but I promise you, this person fully deserved it. No details but imagine someone out for the company you work for and doing it in a blatant way. Imagine whatever you want, this person did it. So, off with their head, they were gone. Still, to some degree, there is stress involved in that because you never know how a person will react. This day and age? uh uh. Guess where I found myself for lunch that day right before I went to do the deed? ChickFilA. I called my sister as I sat in the parking lot. She said, "don't do it, I'm the little angel on your shoulder, don't do it." Oh I couldn't bear to hear her tell me not to do it so I hung up. I just sat there, wanting to go in and get all the things that were bad for me. I pulled out my out to eat food guide and figured out I could eat a grilled chicken sandwich and the fries for lower points than what I really wanted so I called her back for mental permission. She consented. Is that crazy? BUT that's what I needed from her. Support. Thanks Sister.

It's coming off slowly but surely. I'm not giving up but it isn't easy. I will acheive this! Kelly is doing well and we are neck and neck almost in weight loss. I'm as happy for her when she loses as I am when I lose. It's pretty cool.

When David Copperfield was walking through the audience a few times to eyeball a pretty, slim, and sexy female to take up to the stage, I was avoiding his eyes big time. For one, I'm not either three and so that I guess made it easy if his eyes rested on me but I still was petrified every time he passed our aisle. I would look away and pretend to be looking at something else. He never would have picked me but IF he did, I would have DIED to go on that stage in front of all those people and any questions he would have asked of me (as he did anyone he brought on stage) my mouth would have frozen. Wanna know why? Cause I am very self concious about how I look. I have confidence in my life, at work, at home, about expressing myself but when it comes to my body, tis' a whole different ball game folks. Hence, WW. I'm working on it. One day, I'll be super proud to be anywhere or do anything without batting an eye about my appearance. Hey-we all have to have something to work towards, right? This is one of my many.

--I feel loads better. All that was pent inside me. Crazy!

Jenn