Saying

The best thing about the future is that it only comes one day at a time. --Abraham Lincoln

So true. It's easy to get overwhelmed when you think about all that lies ahead. I got to thinking tonight, it can be very overwhelming. It's easy to get emotional. Last night, I fell asleep talking to Lucas and crying. The thing is-my mind was hopping all over the place but it always came back to him. The last thing I remember is crying. Then Ivan got in bed and I felt comforted immediately, just knowing my best friend was there. No words need be said you know? It's just a feeling. I fell off to the land of lumber....

Today was a good day. We relaxed, had plans but not set in stone and it was a nice day. Things happen as they are supposed to and so that's that. Maybe it's time I learned that lesson. It's easier said than done but it's in my mind and I know it, the heart just has to catch up. --

Noah's birthday is coming and I can hardly believe it's July 4th. I can hardly believe its JULY for God's sake. Where has the time gone? The time that is zinging by not waiting for anything. I tell Noah this all the time; don't grow up, just stay the same, don't turn (the next number) /six. He says, "I want to Mom. I have to" Oy. It just happens. He's so onto me. I was reading Chicken Soup for the Parent's Soul the other day and there were two stories that moved me to tears (go figure) and he was right at my side, even though I was crying silently. Are you sad about Lucas mom? What's wrong? With his little hand on my shoulder I just looked at him. It wasn't about Lucas for once. It was about HIM. I'll put in on the blog soon but it was a story about a little boy going off to first grade. It got me to thinking about all that lies ahead....see how it all ties together?

One day, it will all make sense, this I know. If you know nothing else about me, you know that I believe that.

I hear fireworks folks, I'm off. Time to enjoy with the boys.

Jenn