So, it's all coming like a mack truck. I can handle it. No doubt. Nothing is wrong. I'm alright; don't need any help but let me tell you, it's coming straight on. Jacob is going to be here very soon. Very soon. Life is going to change in the sweetest of ways. I've been combining my thoughts of Lucas and Jacob and they are starting to intermingle, to mesh into one. It's all complicated in my head. Crazy complicated. His image is with me, his memory I guess. I see his face so very easily and truly his memory is not even fading; not one bit. Is it supposed to? Then I try to fast forward and think of what Jacob will look like. Probably, just like his daddy. Just like his two brothers. They all look alike. That will settle that...
Noah's party is upon us and anyone that knows us, his birthday parties are no easy feat. Lots of people and lots of prep and lots of fun but nonetheless, this year it's a bit different.... I'm SO pregnant! Not much left to do but decorate and prep the food etc but its all barrelling ahead...
Stuff with the case....
Work is keeping me afloat I must say. I think because my adrenaline is pumped so high for work and to make sure all is getting done and done right before I go out, I am not feeling overly tired, I'm not finding it more difficult to get up in the morning or wanting to take naps..it's the Braxton Hicks contractions that are wearing me down :) but that just means Jacob is truly coming and my body is just practicing and getting ready.
Put it all together and it's quite something to keep up with it all even if it's just in my head.
---Jenn
You cook, you clean, you go to work, you nourish, you love, you scold, you are professional and yet you hang your hat on every dust particle in your home. You are a woman. Some women are Moms and some are not. You are still a woman. We are all made similarly. We are strong.
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