What if life was perfect? Would that be good? Would that be ideal? Would we all be happy then? Not trying to answer all life's questions but just this one..only this one....humor me for one moment.
If we had no worries, no emotional stress, no big problems, no money issues, all the relationships in our life just perfectly so what would there ever be to strive for? If we were all the same, thought the same, looked the same, acted the same, wanted to be the same, how absolutely boring would that be? We'd have nothing to try to acheive. There would be no 'second opinion'. There would be no discussions, nothing to discuss with your friends, no friendly banter, why should there be if we all agreed? See? It makes no sense, life will never be perfect, life could never BE perfect. Do I have worries? Oh sure. All the time. Sometimes, I think unwittingly, it keeps me going. I have big worries and I have small worries and then there's always the other things that just tap on my shoulder every now and then to keep themselves in my psyche. Here's an example: The Pope. The new Pope. Am I worried about him? No, not really. I have already welcomed him in my mind and in my heart but I wonder, how will he really affect the church? Will he be the same as Pope John Paul II? This is not something that will very directly affect my life therefore it has not been running wild in my brain or anything but that is a small example of one of those things that tap on your shoulder and whisper in your ear.
We can never figure it all out. There are things you think you know but really, in the end, you look behind you and you didn't really know it. It was all wrong but what got you through it was the knowing you thought you knew it. Wow. That gave you the confidence you needed to get through. Ivan and I got pictures of the baby again this morning. Awesome, real, super pictures. Some 3D pictures and some other normal ultrasound pictures...all of them incredibile. One just of his little foot, you can see it perfectly. Perfectly with all the toes and simply looking so very adorable. The 3D pictures brought tears to my eyes. They told me something. Not only is the baby healthy; have a healthy heart and all his parts :) but he will be fine. I do not think, no, I trust that God would not let us go through anything else even remotely comparable to what we all went through for Lucas. As my friend Tammy pointed out this morning, 'as Oprah says, "This much I know for sure.". It's what's going to get me through. The real outcome remains to be seen but there's a little angel whispering in my ear that we will all be just fine.
Love Jenn
You cook, you clean, you go to work, you nourish, you love, you scold, you are professional and yet you hang your hat on every dust particle in your home. You are a woman. Some women are Moms and some are not. You are still a woman. We are all made similarly. We are strong.
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