The Great Depression Again?

What would it be? The Greatest Depression? The Great Depression the 2nd? The Great Depression Again? Yes, it's true over the years and as I've grown as an adult the news has always been depressing, negative, watch it to keep in touch but never much of a positive spin on much just in general. This is a whole new level.

I don't think we can even fathom what might happen. Even if this Rescue Plan comes to fruition, will that really work? Will the solutions work? Or will they cause other effects systemically throughout our financial market that bleed into our day to day lives in ways we don't like? I think its all possible. I really do. I'm an optimist most of the time but this is scary. Bad debts are increasing right now because people are losing their jobs and cannot pay their mortgages. Now folks will find it much harder to even GET loans for a car, a house, a anything. It's locking up.

I think unfortunately We the People are along for a ride we cannot get off of. Our culture of want want want and gotta have it now is rearing it's ugly head and getting ready to bite us in our butt. I don't think any of us will like how it feels.

-J

Quiet

So. I've been quiet for a while. I go through cycles of tons to say then thinking I should fall silent for a bit and then sometimes it turns into writers block.

Weight:
I hate mine. Let me pout for a second. I don't WANT to exircise, I don't WANT to eat specific things. I know I have to but I DON'T WANT to. Thanks. Fit done.

Self:
I like mine.

Weight/self:
Intertwined together hence the ups and downs.

Control:
I have none in this life; none of us do. If you think you have control of something, it's just a coincidence. It's just a happenstance of your life at that moment in time. God is really in control; not you, not me.

My boys:
My joy. Pure.

Best Friends:
I am lucky. She's the best. Supports me and gets mad at me and laughes her butt off at me and hates me and loves me and is quiet when needed and loud when needed. Wonder why I had to go 36, 37 years to find this friend? Oh yeah, it's that God thing. Perfect timing for this life of mine.

sorry to ramble this time guys. usually I'm more cohesive than this. must be the wine.

Think Thank Thunk and Dentists in Tidewater

Low black clouds; I feel them. Thinking, thanking, and thunking belays. BUT BUT BUT there are so many good things, lots of them. They'll come to me soon. I know it.

Random:

-Do you think dentists really try to cheat you? Do you think they would make up if a child had suddenly lots of cavaties out of nowhere? A child who does not drink any kind of soda, lots of water and second to that, milk? Very little juice in the grand scheme of things? We have not had dental insurance in.a.long.time. We always pay outright every time we take the Oldest. I have not been in years and neither has my honey. So on his last visit (thank you Auntie M) they discovered lots of cavaties and I think they said he was not brushing right or brushing too hard. They wanted us to make two appointments for all the fillings. I called ahead not knowing what the cost would be and wanted to see if they would let us pay 1/2 then 1/2 the next month. No. No they would not. I'm going to another dentist just for that answer alone. Secondly the cost per visits will be 339.00 and 363.00. They have NEVER had to bill us. We always pay on the spot and how nice for them? Immediate pay and no waiting for insurance or billing us/them etc, they just get it. They won't work with us now? I'm peeved over all this and as of tomorrow I will be calling around and finding out just who WILL work with us and that is one less client our dentist will have. He probably does not care but still....I'll feel tons better.

-Am loving facebook, turning out to be lots of fun.

-Do you know who Jim Cramer is? I enjoy him.

-Have been low key lately. I think we could use lots of rain. I like the mood rain brings.

-Do you know the difference between a hockey mom and a bull dog? Yah, you know. Dumb.

Pix. Life.

Not very recent but not too long ago either. My boys. The best.

The Days of Our Lives

This week alone:

• The Littlest ran away two times in one day. Details later and yes I'm serious but also it wasn't serious. Talk about stress.
• Life got a lot more stressful for lots of reasons; none of I want to go into here but trust me, it did.
• The stock market came three heartbeats away from crashing and now we have history in the making. We almost had another Great Depression. In this day and age. Hard to wrap your mind around that one.
• Cried myself to sleep one night; ok, make that two.
• I got more worried about the election; it is what it is and I am not going to worry about it anymore.
• I cooked dinner at home like four nights in a row. Seriously, you have no idea what effort that took.
• All small things but bullet two is really twelve bullets in one.

Rough week. Looking forward to more positive. For sure. My best friend coined it perfectly; These Are The Days of Our Lives. Agree.

Jenn

Knowing What You Know; Making It Who You Are..

I have to work on being less so. Less of me. Less mean. Less direct. Think more of others and how they take what I say. Less me. I'm no good the way I am, or, less good.

How do you soften yourself? Is it possible? I have searched for this answer for a long time. I have long prayed about it. But as I've mentioned before, I think God's deal is not to just outright give you what you pray for. It's either going to happen or it's not, it's already plotted out. His way is to let you make your own way and sometimes the things you ask for are never aquired. A child that is sick and dying? A fervent constant prayer, a begging prayer, a bartering prayer, an on your knees begging to take the place of this child prayer, that doesn't work sometimes. I've seen it; been there, done that. Maybe that event changed my life and made me harder, made me want to be more in control and in charge. I'm still searching it all out. Your life makes you who you are. I know mine has. I am realizing it more and more. I will try to put it out there less. I will soften my hard edges and if I know what I want, I'll say it less. If I know what I think, I'll say it less. I'll probably write on here less too. I need to be less the way I am. -will work on it.

-j

E books

What are they? How do they work? You download them to what? And is it someone reading the book to you so it's like a book on tape or CD? Someone tell me; give me the 411! Why are they better or ARE they?

I'm for a good old fashioned read but I suppose if you were driving cross country or something....I don't know. Do you listen to it in the car instead of music? I'm dumb on this.

Help!

-J

Grow Grow Grow

My LORD they are growing. I pick moments to focus in on them and see them talking, interacting, fighting, playing, defending one another, cuddling on the same chair watching TV and it all warms my heart. 9 and 3. Amazing to me. This moment will be gone in a flash. I'm trying very hard to memorize it all to emblazon it in my mind. Thank goodness for this blog, it will help me do that.

The Littlest talks in full complete sentences, tells me his thoughts, why he likes something, why he doesn't, he notices when we have been driving in silence (when I'm lost in thought driving along) and tells me when we arrive at the next place, "mamma you were very quiet and I was very quiet" Yes, yes we were. For a three year old, a little bit observant. The Oldest is practicing on his guitar little at a time. Tennis lessons soon to start again as he flies through book after book (with a little encouragement from me). He's been talking about girls lately. Oh boy.

When we walk he likes to ride his bike ahead and my only rule is you have to be able to see me even if I look really small (far away) and this frustrates him. Sorry but you aren't going on without me yet. Not yet.

Go ahead little ones, grow grow grow. Just never forget how much we love you. Will always be here for you. Wait.....I'm pretty sure you know that. Hope so.

Mamma

The Year of the Election

Go. Check him out. Tamm pointed me to him; hadn't been in a while and it always amazes me when I let time go and haven't checked his stuff. Why I let time do that to me....

Click here and make sure you have time for an informative read

Who is right? Who is wrong? The world will never know. At least not for a year or two. It'll all come out in the wash. Whatever happens, we'll have to make the best of it. Won't we? I'm not sure. I'm not sure of anything. I do know that he writes well and has researched a few things. My writings are driven by emotions; his are driven by facts. Like that.

Jenn

Republicans 2008

I know, I know. I can't help it. Clearly I'm all fired up. Did you know the following:

• That they really don't get it. They really don't. Something as small but maybe not insignificant--the lime green outfit Cindy McCain wore last night cost $300,000. Um, add a little bit to that number and that's just about how much we paid for our entire HOUSE. Are they so out of touch? Well, I guess they are. Seriously? Even if you ARE that rich and your husband is running for President how about not flaunting your millions to the entire country watching? There are people hurting, families in crisis, in debt, working hard for not that much, foreclosing on their homes...I think the fact that she wore an outfit that cost that much money is a clear signal that they are completely out of touch.
• That I agree Sarah Palin is an effective speaker. I felt she was a bit sardonic last night but can't argue she is an effective speaker. Will she know the issues, will she debate well, could she run the country? That remains to be seen. I feel picking her was a poor choice; espeically over others that were available and more well qualified but it is what it is now. Let history make itself. I will not disregard her inexperience. Will not.
• That the main theme of the RNC tonight is fear? They are trying to shove it down our throats. Let me tell you something, I fell for that last time, I'm offended by it and I'm not falling for it again. Done with that. Please do not continue to insult me. I acknowledge there are terrorists in this world who wish our country harm and try to plan it at every turn but I'm not falling for this again. Fool me once, shame on you, fool me twice, shame on me, try to fool me again and I'd be a flaming idiot. I'm not.
• That John McCain has been practicing for SIX WEEKS for this speech tonight. SIX WEEKS. I wish someone would cut the power to the teleprompter tonight and let the chips fall where they may. I think it would look something sort of like deer in headlights if you ask me. But then, hey, he's been practicing for six weeks so I'm sure he'd be able to roll; right?

Why is she not giving interviews? Where is she? Tending to her family? I would expect her to but anyone see my point here? Really, where is she? If she's tending to her family doesn't that tell you something for the future? Just saying. Someone please shut me up. Put me in my place. Please, open my mind more. I know, I'm very close minded. I know.

Oh Sarah Palin where art thou? You won't give interviews till your "campaign is ready" (quote) why aren't you ready now? I don't get it. We are supposed to vote for you but you are too busy letting others tell you how you are supposed to speak, school you on the issues and tell you your opinions on them? Can you get it all done in a week before your first debate? Is anyone else concerned?

I have no opinions on this, you can tell right?

RNC

Where do I begin? I have to keep an open mind. I'm supposed to. Keep an open mind. .....But I can't help myself. Tell me.....

• Is it me or do you notice how BORED everyone looks?


• Is it me or are people being extremely rude and laughing and talking, moving around and not paying attention?


• Is it me or are the speeches a bit short and void of content?


• Is it me or are you as glad as I am that he didn't choose Meg Whitman as VP?


• Is it me or are you as shocked as I am (still) that he chose Sarah Palin?

OK. She has not spoken yet and I might just have to eat my words and if I have to, I gladly will.

Mitt Romney is on now oh boy, let me listen in with my open mind. Promise. I will. Ok, ok, promise, I'll try.

I can't help myself, I'm still scratching my head and saying, "Sarah Palin? eh? " Sarah Palin Comparison is more like it. Done. More later. Done done done.

What do YOU want for dinner?

This ever happen to you? The difference between men and women; something like that--

Me: What do you feel like eating for dinner?
Him: I don't know, whatever you feel like eating.
Me: But what about you? What do YOU want?
Him: Anything really, what do you feel like?
Me: How about Mexican?
Him: No, not Mexican.
Me: Well, do you want to eat then?
Him: I don't know, anything really, like I said.
Me: What about subs?
Him: No, not subs, don't feel like that.
Me: (sigh) What about Chinese?
Him: No, I'm not that hungry.
Me: What do you want then (exasperated)?
Him: Whatever you think.
Me: Fine, what about ChickFilA (insert whatever your next choice would be at this point I'm just throwing schmack out there)
Him: Naaaah, not that either.
Go ahead, shoot me now.
Me: TELL.ME.WHAT.YOU.WANT.TO.EAT!!!
end result of this conversation?
Sandwiches at home. PHEW!

It's the same grind many nights of the week. Cooking is not my fav thing to do. I wish I was born loving to cook but alas, twas not meant to be. I have to work really hard at it and sadly, even when I do, it still turns out badly. I'm too creative, I throw ingredients in that the recipe does not call for. This is partly because I'm Ms. Bossy Pants and I think the creator of the recipe is wrong and it really needs XYZ and PDQ. This let me tell you does not make for a good outcome. What is it they say? Insanity is doing the same thing over and over expecting a different result? Yep, that's me; insane. I wish cooking was something he enjoyed doing. What do you do if neither parent particularly loves cooking? It takes lots of my energy to be original and come up with great dinners all the time. And it also takes a lot of my small brain to have the above conversations over and over and over and over again; hey it's kind of like that insanity idea. Expecting a different result each time-and it's always the same, the very same conversation. Sigh.

I don't know, what do YOU want for dinner?

Jenn

Palin; Pale In Comparison..More on her...

Check out the link below--

More of the same. It's more of the same. What was it Joe Biden was saying at the convention last week? He said, "That's not change, that's more of the same." -and that's exactly what it is in more ways than one.

This from a journalist who lives in Alaska. Really, check it out. He lives there; I read it, found it very interesting. Odd this whole thing is. John McCain I think does not want to win. I really think that.

http://alaskanabroad.typepad.com/an_alaskan_abroad/2008/08/doogan-on-palin.html

I say she will fall apart on her own, I think things will spin out of control at some point; they are well on their way now and it's clear the Republicans made a mistake and are in panic mode but defending her fiercely. What choice do they have? John McCain the Maverick just mavericked his way right into a fun situation didn't he? How about thinking before acting as a Presidential Nominee? You have to do that in the real job, Buddy!